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hi! it has benn quite some time since i updated my blog..because,i'm really busy with my clubcrawl performance coming up in 21 and 22 of april.haha!hence, there is one thing i must really know is to manage my time well and take good care fo myself especially my legs and my health..recently, my legs are giving me cramps and it was really making my life so miserable.it was due to excessive training in danceworks which was over for 2 weeks.but danceworks really made me level up my standards.i realised i improved a lot ever since joining my very first competition in hip hop!wow, i also can't believe that i had really made myself such a big step towards it!however, i have decided to drop my ballroom in cca.because, my body really can't take it anymore and it has been giving me red light.doctor also advised me to stop straining myself and i need a lot time and concentration to really buck up my studies as it was not reflecting well.3.2 gpa was really bad.this won't get me anything.no director list,no burasaries and even awards for further studies!hence, i shall say goodbye to ballroom!but in this way i may feel happier as no more humilations,ostracising!but i shall continue my latin in shawn and gladys dance world!well, now, i try my best to finish up my library books and at least able to let me get exposure i my upcoming modules!no matter how, this yr 2, i'm gng to get the best results!!no more guys coming to me and no more admierers!give me a break!!because,i'm single but unavaliable!!heart does not change for me!!tschus!!

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it's time for my updates again!firstly, i was very happy to meet my sis,patricia and soulmate,yi qing!yeahs!we went to bugis for shopping around and i found a shop which sells a reasonable price sneakers!oh my, talk about that, my heart was really aching when this has reminded me that i bought a 135 dollars sneakers from leftfoot!that was so expensive!!ouch ouch!mysalary!!that was what i whined to both of them as the sneakers i saw yesterday were much far cheaper than the one i bought!hence, i told myself that once i got my salary, i shall use small amount of money to buy this sneakers!and the clothes shop which was quite cheap too!yi qing suggested me to ask her out again once my salary was deposit into my account for buying these things i told her.as for now, i'm really very busy in my dance.but my loves for locking was getting more and more!what i had planned was to earn more money and register at o school to learn locking and go for competitions hopefully.But one thing was,what i have decided was to stopmy latin for quite some time in my cca.to concetrate and work super hard in my academics.because i must use this time to push my gpa up to 3.5 above!it maybe hard but i told myself that i chose a more tougher and harder route so i can't turn back anymore.i shall move on for greater heights.then, i will progress my latin in shawn and gladys danceworld.in fact, i may feel happy once i leave this cca as the people over there are making me feel humilated.they made me feel left out by not giving me any important dances for me to take part even though they know i can show it out.my friend,leela supported me to continue dancing latin outside and go on for greater heights and find the best partner to go for competitions.Hopefully, i can do well in my studies,locking and in foriegn bodies.kelly,my fb friend, told me that she loves my style for dancing and strangely was she said i always stand out from the others.haha!so many of my friends also said that!they said it was really a good thing that a dancer can standout form the crowd.that was a bad point as in team work i suffered a lot.unique me!Now, i shall put in all my best in everything i'm going to do and face!i hope god will also bless me by giving me strength and hopes pin to me.not only, also hope he bless me with wisdom too and judgment.hereby you hear my prayers ,god.amen!

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time for me to update.well, now i was feeling really upset with myself..because this time round my results didn't really imrpove..it's all bs..really nonsense!i really hate that..and my gpa was really lousy once more..it was disappointing..perhaps i think god was punishing me.as i was aim too much and he thinks i'm greedy.Hence, to prevent that to happen to me, i shall not always lose temper when things can't work well and being so "disrespectful".i felt so guilty about this.I never did what i have promised to my aunt.She was not disappointed but she told me 1 thing.she advised me to give up my latin and concentrate more on my studies and foriegn bodies.came thinking that, although i was struggling inside me but i feel that maybe i shall not be too involved in my ballroom anymore.Because firstly, i have no partner and secondly,my seniors was ostrasizing me as they feel that i was a traitor as i was a fb member so most of the performances, they always try to cut my part and in fact what i always do was to do very well and show out all my ability.that was to shut their trap and prove them totally wrong.Now, hopefully i can find a partner soon.but studies comes first.i'm going to fully make use well my remaining 2 yrs to climb up fast and real high.i'm not going to let the other people to step on my head.i'm going to do what i have sweared to promise my aunt and going to overseas for my attachment.

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today,i heard of one story and felt quite sad and confused at same time.it begins in ths way: a girl and a guy,known for each other since in their secondary school life.this guy was always being with her no matter what happened to her,be it having other relationships problems,family problems and so on..when she was feeling really upset, he would generously lent her a shoulder to cry on.hence, as time goes by,this girl has developed feelings towards to this guy. but,she could not expressed and confessed to him.because, if she told him about this,their friendship may jepardised.all along, this girl kept it in her heart till now.but she felt really painful as she has suppressed her feelings for a very long time and maybe it shall always remained as a secret..that really gave me so much thoughts. why can't they be together?why can't a girl and a guy who really deep in love can't be together even it has been so long?why?i really don't know..it pains me.i won't mind anything if i really love the right guy.i won't mind waiting for him,i won't mind if we can't get married and i won't mind he's not rich not good looking.i won't mind if he was unable to give me a status if he really don't have the ability.so as long i can stay with and give him what i have and what i can..is really good enough and contented..

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time for my update!today, i went to my workplace for attire fitting.i was glad that my boss was able to accept me to come back and work.yeahs!!in fact, i was really greatful that i can work for what i want as i really don't like to ask money from my family.i feel that we must have backbone and never bow down to anyone.my colleagues was shocked initially when i came today but after that, they smiled at me and happily asked me if i was doing fine..haha!but my boss was hoping that i can work everyday.yes i wished i can but for now, i have danceworks and clubcrawl and this are really very hectic for me.hence, i told him that i can work for anytime after march.but i was really contented to go back to here,grand hyatt hotel.thanks god and my friend jalini giving me this job.i will really work very hard!besides that, yesterday,st james power station suddenly called me to perform a salsa and latin dance for them!haha! but i rejected their offer!yes i love dancing but it really depends on where it is.Not means that that type of place is prohibited but honestly, i never stepped into a club in my whole life till now!ãnd i also respected my aunt advice of not going to such places.Therefore, i just kindly rejected them.well,i just don't know why there is a tinge of sadness came to me.i was wondering and pounding about my studies..results was going to be out soon.recapping what has happened, i finished 3 of my biology exam papers within 30 mins.was it a good thing or a bad one?it was worrying..because i don't want to score badly just like semester 1.i ound myself a failure.seriously, i was asking myself,what have i achieved?what have got for myself?is like..nothing,nothing at all.sigh..really a flop isabelle..my aunt gave me this name because she was inspired by her friend also named isabelle was a great botanist.but me, what am i?!this is depressing..i'm really failing myself..i'm not successful,i'm not smart or even pretty..i really hope to be like her, isabelle..now what i always do now was to pray to god and told him all about my worries and my thoughts.hopefully, he will understand.i'm sorry god if i can't accomplished what i have promise to you.but i will try my best because is my promise to you.some of the things i know, you have given to me and i really greatful and happy.but i'm working hard on some impossible missions.i wish i can get for what i reap.but my aunt toldme not to be overly ambitious and greedy and i sincerely listened to her advices.elders always give advices which come form their heart.hence, it is wise to heed it or else you will suffer.How true it is.well, i shall stop here and hopefully i can really get what i expected for myself.that will be good enough..

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well, i shall not put any title on this post once more..haha!guess what, due to yesterday learning of regaee and locking, my aps are really in deep pain now..plus this morning steneous excercise and training of my latin..ouch!!i feel like tired and beat..not only that, i feel like dying too!oh man!!this is really killing me softly!!after that, i still meet my friends too at douby ghaut and walked to smu university for lunch and some board games..it was quite fun actually.haha! i enjoyed myself but i kept dozing off...that was rude..but i don'tmean it..feel so sorry about this..hahah!then i went back home with jun kai,alex and zi qin.zi qin was having a terrible sinus and his nose was as red as a rudolf reindeer!haha!no offence zi qin!!haha!well i shall make it a short one..cos my energy was really low now..and i can't hang on already..i really want to have someone's shoulder to lean on and hug on..

Dance!!

Updates!! Now,in meantime preparing for danceworks,foreign bodies are planning for clubcrawl!!wow! can't imagine the very first fb t shirt we will recieving!!getting a bit excited but....bear in mind,studies comes 1st!!yes!!definitely!!today, i really got the chance to get 1 of the senior,mike to teach us locking!!i really enjoyed it and i was happy that i grasped the basics quite fast and immediately!!but of cos,there are more to come..hahaha!i will be waiting to learn more because i really love locking and wants to get specialised in this!!besides, i have also learnt regaee!!ha! that's the most hardest part!! my waves and hands still need more coordiantion!!hahah!but at least, i managed to get the basics right and techniques too!!then,to add on,i spent the whole morning with jennifer and her primary school friend,le xuan!!haha! talk about that, i never know i can click so well with le xuan!!wow man, we talked about korea guys shinee!!hahaha! her husband!!just joking then..hahahah!we really talked non stop!!from the time i met her in library till the time i need to went to nyp..hahah!but as for jen..actually, today i was quite a bit sad for her..cos when le xuan went to the restroom, she immediately breakdown in front of me,telling me that her aunt may pass away anytime..my heart really sank to the bottomless pit..but i hold back my emotions as there are people around..so i hereby prayed hard that her aunt will live long..please!!don't give jen so much misery!!she had enough!!she had enough!!hope god may bless her!!isabelle will always be with you jen!!okies..my body was aching like mad now..shall stop here!!

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back to my updates!! well as usual, i have dance practice for everyday from now on till after my danceworks.haha! it is really tiring..but i feel that i have learn a lot form here.i don't have hip hop background so compared to my dancemates, i was quite lose out.so i have to work more harder than other people.Now, i really yearn to learn locking.hopefully,within this month,i can learn at least the basics of locking.now,although our cheoreo was quite slow,but i believe my group will definitely do very well as we have such a good cheroegraphers!!Jiayous!!we can do it!!although we are slow, but slow can make things better!!agreed?haha!just don't understand why my steps still don't show well..i feel so sad about it..but never mind, i'm going to improve and keep practising it!!had a good time dancing today and i met leela!haha! and we had dinner together and we talked a lot too!!well, that all for today updates!i'm really quite tired now.oh ya, by the way, this guy,jason has managed to change for the better.he has managed to self control himself after i had talked to him so many times.but when he confessed to me, i did not accept him and did not meet him.because i will never fall in love with other guys..

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well for now, i shall not put any subheadings for my entry..haha!this whole month shall be my most busiest month till school reopens!! of course is none other than my dancing!!haha!but of course part time too!but i think my part time job shall start the following week! so i have to catch up my time with friends too! it has been so long that i have seen them!my ite classmates which is my usual gang!!haha!miss them so much!!ahhhh!! i'm so frustrated today because i keep forgetting my steps and cheoreo!!bella isabelle!!how could you!!how could you be so lousy!!ahhhhhhh!! my brain is really so lousy man!!concentrate please!!hence, no way i will let myself to drop!i must practise till everything is ok!!i'm not going to give up!!yea!!jiayous isabelle!!okies! i'm so worn out now..but i will not let it cause my downfall!!

misses...

heys!back to updates!! well, i finally can have fun with my friends,pat,yi qing and 2 of their classmates,yi xian and wee ling!!wow!! i really enjoyed this outing because it has been a long time ever since we met up!! we went for bowling at kallang bowling centre!! hey you know, that is the very first time i have stepped into bowling centre and first time have a feel of how bowling really likes..hahahah! i'm so xua gu!!hahahhaah!but it is my first time!!as i have never played bowling before in all my 20 years of life??hahahahah! actually we did planned for ice skating but when we saw the price....oh man!!the $$$$...forget it then..hahahahha!but i really have a good experience of taking the bowling ball and it is really heavy and i was like carrying a watermelon!!haha! but strangely is, i never know i scored quite moderately..as i just followed how the bowlers played.but we really enjoyed this game!woohoo!!after bowling, we went for lunch cum dinner. we went to the japanese restaurant for buffet!Guess what? we ate quite a lot that we felt so bloated!!but the food were indeed delicious and worth it after all!!then after that, we went home but yi qing asked me to tag along with her to tampines mall for shopping of her cosmetics..hahah! and i got a membership card as she bought the amount exceeded the requirements!!haha!so we talked a lot regarding about relationships.she asked me how's relationship with this guy ,sean.In fact, i had never had a relationship at all.as guys walked away from me when it's near to getting into it.it's kind of sad but well that's really me.i'm just not suitable to have a bf after all.guys just treat me like a jinx.never want to be with me.but i can understand because, they will never want to be a girl who just lives in the world of dancing and studying.boring girl..that what they might be thinking.haha! but i was not upset after all but i just felt lost initially..actually, when this guy date me out, although physically i'm beside him but my heart is somewhere else.i realised i just can't lay my heart on him.i can't.seriously..i can't accept another guy again.hence, i stay single and i found that it was a release to me..and now studies and dance shall be my everything!! competition coming!belle!!jiayous!! or bella la!hahahahah!

Holidays!!

heys! it's has been ages since i have updated my blog..haha!because i have exams to handle..talk about that, i really hope this time round, i can really do well and i really want to!!hopefully can!well, it's holidays! but is not holidays for me after all.why do i say that?Aiya, dance copetition coming and performances coming up too.hence,i can't avoid training and practising..hahaha! Not only that, i also have to work part time for my own allowance.And, i really need money!!money!money!aww...i really desparate for you!!i want to buy this shoes which i had seen at this particular shoe shop and this clothes and this and that...ahhhh!! money still speaks the loudest!!MONEY!!haha!okay enough of money!that makes me sound like i'm so money minded..well, all this time, i really got sick and tired of these guys coming to me and sweet talked to me how much they love me, how much they want to get me..CRAP!!all is bullshiting!!that what i want to say!! what love relationships?!that is crap!!so what if they got me? in the end, they will just completely ignore me and just walked out of me.Okay! i had enough of their nonsense!!what communication breakdown?lame excuses!He might as well just say i don't love you!!that will be the best to let me know!to save his breath..hhaha!Now i shall really enjoy my singlehood!!to me, what i really hope is to find a guy who actually really knows how to love me and knows what i really want..i don't expect so much but to hope they know my existence and really loves me a lot..anyway i really thank my few of my friends who showed concern for me when i was terribly sick and lost..i really feel touched!!thanks hazi , zee,fiona and faz who gave the confidence that i'm capable to achieve!!zhennan too!!samuel wishes too!i heard of somethings which i find quite true..if a guy still loves you, he will come to you eventually..how true it is..but a girl although they said they don't love you, never believe thses words, because, they still loves you more than you do..

heys! so long ever since i have updated you, my diary!!haha!well now is already in the year of 2010!! recapping 2009, it wasn't a great year for me..why? because 2009, i did not do so well in my semester and even in my other aspect..everything just not in place and not even up to my expectations..and i got very stressed up and upset about it..so well..shoo!!2009!! hopefully 2010 i will do even much better than before!!haha! in fact, i have set myself some resolutions and hopefully i can really accomplished it(at most 80% will do).these are what i really set for myself: getting 3.5 and above for this sem 2.pull up my socks if my tests does not reflect well.Get myself to learn locking in hip hop and get to higher level in my locking.seek improvemnets in my latin and hopefully can find partner within this year. do well in every small segements of my studies and projects.learn to be more discreet and open up to different people. always do well in all my performances and be more confident be it in dance and studies. Be a better girlfriend.hahah! how come i set that as my resolution? Because, although things may not always be perfect as what you want to be, but at least, i want to try to. Finding and accepting someone you love is really hard. it really fortunate to have someone who loves you..therefore, i told myself, this relationship, i must really treasure well..and really hoping to give what i have and what i can..in fact, i'm really proud to be in relationship!!haha! i don't know what will happen in future but no matter how,i will hold this tight and cherish it..

hey my diary!it's quite a long time ever since i talked to you..haha! Finally my cts are over!! well it's a good thing that it is over but however..i worry for another which is results!!! i don't want to have my history repeated once more..sigh..but however i have changed my way of handling in my studies. i did not followed the way i did in past..instead i told myself to relax when studying and not to give myself too much pressure.haha! guess i realised i changed a lot. i realised i was no longer the isabelle in the past.Because i have moved on my life!!But not forgetting my friends who been through thick and thin with me!Frohe weinacheten!!ich liebe est!!woohoo!!(merry christmas i love it!!) in german.hahaha!Prost Neujahr!( happy new year)! yeaps! new year is approaching near the corner too!!wow! i really hope the time can really stop here!!Because every year, i really dread the chinese new year..aww..dread the time of going back to Malaysia..but on account of my aunt, i have to go back..16 years..i have to follow this routine..i find myself that my life is always just so meaningless sometimes..i even ask myself why i can't just stand up and really fight for my rights! why?! i always got chickened out upon hearing that my mum made a scene which turn things ugly..well..now i shall divert my topic..hahaha! what i can hope now is i really must work really hard for my dreams to achieve!!i must also wake up from mistakes made!! start anew form a fresh piece of white paper!! ich woll schreibe mit faber in paper!( i want to write with colours!)And i wish to get a pair of boots for myself and new pair of sneakers!!haha!besides, hope to get somemore new clothes..really desparate on that..just feel like dressing up myself nicely..hahaha!well shall end here..as my brain is switching off..

hey my diary! So long ever since i come and talk to you!! I just want to vent out my frustrations inside me!! it was really shiity to get a stupid warning letter for no reason!!! hey i did have special and valid reasons!! why must i get it? that was SO UNFAIR!!! Okies!! enough of that!! just not worth it!! and i'm going to prove that they are in wrong!! Tests coming and what really pounders me are my fears because of semester 1 results..this is worrying beacause i don't want to repeat my downfall and mistakes made..it was already painful enough and i was like reaally feel so bottom of the world..now both my IT and biostatistic project are done!! and done last week!! but pray hard i can score well as it carries certain amount of weightage..in fact, i was happy that for biostat, me and doraline did quite neatly and we put in so much inside..just hope what we can really score well!! may god bless us!! and also hope god will bless me in my tests..really hope so..cos i don't want to suffer anymore..what i can do now..is to really prove everything that can made a difference and climb high!!

heys my diary!! well..just to have things to talk to you..hahaha! this coming week is going to be a hectic week again!! now i really feel like banging my head on the wall!! why? because of my IT SCIENCE PROJECT!!!! why must i missed the lesson for this?? but i can't helped it as i have a terrible gum pain again!! when can this really end?? it is really so irritating as it affects my progress of doing my revision!! Feels like killing me softly and silently..hahaha! sounds so weird..but it is really happening to me now..so far, within these 2 days i managed to studies 85% of my modules plus e learning for 2 of my modules..that is slow...really slow..bella..2 weeks count down to commom tests and 1 week to submission of projects..aiyo..still planning?! sigh..just really must get all things done!! this is really ruining my plans!! Performance for my foreign bodies is coming up in december!!hahaha! quite excited about that but due to aftermath of perfoamnces done on wednesday and gum pain, i missed 2 lessons of my training..hahaa! yes perhaps is too tired as i have to run both sides in latin and fbodz during showtime..hahaha!well, i shall make this short and get back to work..hope that, though slow progress, but still can create good results..

Once again, i'm back!!hahaha! i guess i had been gone missing in action of updating my diary..hahah! Recently, i have just finished my lunhtime performances of foreign bodies and latin!!hahaha!it was really a great experience for me to perform foreign bodies for the very first time in nyp!woohoo! of course,latin as well!! and this time round is much more exciting as it was the new debut of doing cha cha!!wow!! i really like that as i prefer to showcase this type of dance and now is a time to improve on more of my styling and of course techniques!! as it may put into good use for future events coming up real soon!! so stay tune!! Now...get back something serious..projects!!!! this really making my life more hectic once more!!i know i can't avoid this stage of my studies but it is like really piling up!!okies!!ISABELLE OR BELLA!!come on!! you can do this!! you have been through worse than this before!!hahaha! nothing is impossible!!tian xia wu nan shi zhi pa you xin ren!!yes!! get myself drill up!even though time is pressing me hard!!i was also wondering if i should attend my previous school gathering..aww..my friends are having their tests during this period of time and i'm afraid they may not be attending..aww...i feel that no point going if none of my friends are going..hahha! imagine, if you are alone there..it was really weird and you will just be jealous of seeing other people mingling around with their group of friends and you..just standing there alone..admiring with envy?!hahaha! that sounds really...isolated!! hate this feeling!!okies!! shall stop here..and get back to work!!!also looking forward for the christmas concert of fbodz!!yahoo!!

heys!! Well, i suppose it has been ages ever since i had start to update my diary..beacause,i was really busy studying and dancing at the same time as performances coming up for like around 3 weeks? wow..it is really limited for me as i managed to learn my latin cheoreo within just 1 day and even the samba cheoreo..in fact, i really love latin a lot and i hope to perform more than i expected but however, i still have my foreign bodies very 1st performance, so if latin happen to just have 2 items for me, i can understand..but still, i will give my best shot to prove that, even though i have 2 ccas,this will be nothing at all!Now, i realised my life is getting more colourful..i should not always say that i will stay single forever.Now what happen? Last staurday, my very close friend,su, has introduce a guy from her secondary school plus same cca with her to me..at 1st, to me, i thought that, it will just a simple friend's talk to know each other.But it turns out to be matchmaking session!!AWWW!!!This really getting me crazy..But he is really nice after all..and he's in army for now..it also happen that he's the same age as me..hahaha!Surprisingly, we happen to share the same thinking and even the way of talking is the same!! where on earth can this happen?! to know someone who is almost exactly the same as you??Guess what, we chatted from 10pm till...3am in the morning!!ha!!incredible and in school on monday and today, we had messaged from like morning 8am till....12am on mon..wow..but we really had so much to share...haha!well, i shall stop here..as i had to get back to focus!!

Heys! it's been sometime i haven't been talking to you!well, as for now, i have really have lots to share..well, i was really very upset for myself that, i did not do well in semester 1 and really worried for myself...as semester 1 , i only scored 3.2..which is quite bad..and till now, i admit i was really unhappy about it..because i think during sem 1 i stressed myself too much which cause my downfall..and this shall be my lesson learnt..Now, i really looking forward to work with my project partner peiru..haha! you know, actually i really never know i can relate to her quite well as she don't open up to people and in fact,after what she told me about her family yesterday, my heart sank to bottom..And she actually cried in front of me beacuse i sounded her out and she showed her emotions out to me..i was glad that she finally open up to me!!Now semester 2 is really crucial period for me and i jsut don't understand why i'm still can't get over my downfall? okies! forget it ISABELLE!!!OKIES? But,for now, i was happy that sem 2 modules are my favourite modules..all biology and statistics!!haha! but...one thing came into my mind..am i going to really make it?i really ask myself this..i don't want to stay in 3.2 forever..i really want to improve..no i should say i must do very well instead!! beacause i have a dream to be accomplish and i must make it happen!! it was to go around and save people's lives,curing their illnesses or even help the criminals or dead people to solve crimes by relieving their grieverances. I know is hard but now i shall really get serious to work for it in every small segment of my school work!! i really want to thank jordan for giving and sharing his converstaion with me this afternoon! But so strange is when i'm always in need of someone listening to me, he and sometimes zhen nan will always be there to lisiten to me..hahaha! And usually, i always pray to god and even tell him about all my fears and worries inside me.there is one time i really feel that my life was like darkness..and i really hide myself in toliet to cry out but silently..i really don't understand why i just can't reach my expectations?WHY??Why my life just always like that since when i was being brought into this world?? i always can never enjoy what i really want to acheive!! Do you know? sometimes, i really hope to have a companion sit beside and i can lean his or her shoulder to cry...but never mind! this is just impossible for me!!Companion?? who will it be?? i don't know..but never mind without a bf, i still can live happily and brave through storms and thunders!!Guys won't fall in love with me, this kind fo girl!hahaha!Jiayous bella!! Come on!! life isn't that scary and bad!! Better days will come to me!! Now, love realtionships shall say goodbye to me forever!! life to be single is really good!!yahoos!!!!

School time and showcase!!

heys! it's been quite some time i have not updated my diary!!haha!Because till now,i'm still very sick and i'm glad i have just escaped from the deathgod last saturday..My aunt really saved me from him or else i shall bid goodbye to this world already.this sounds like a joke but it is not to me at all.Because,this occured to me at least quite a lot times!but i prayed to god and told him not to take me away as i have not accomplished what i really want to and i have not done well for this round and i need him to give me time to amend my loss and strive hard for my studies in order to achieve my dream to save people's lives at everywhere i go in future.I suppose he agreed to me and let me off for this round.Thank you god!i shall repay your kindness for not taking my life all this time when i'm suffering form severe cough which nearly cause bronchitis.School started and of course,my showcase coming this friday!!wow that's fast!this semester is really a great challenge to me as the modules i'm studying is really a lot brainwork but i love it!!hahaha!beacause it is sort of a recapping work to me as i came across during my colleage east days!!haha!it's time to get back on my feet after my downfall and sickness!it may be hard in future for me but i shall face it with smiles and natural heart feel!Hope god will bless me with this and agree on my terms!Is so nice of jordan who came and asked about my life during holidays!!hahaha! but i always forgot to ask his msn and facebook!!aww...but is okies..i will still get the chance to see him as he is the same course as me!But i like express my thanks to people who concerned about my sickness all along!i was so touched!thanks!now i felt so relaxed as no more stupid problems bothering to me as i'm enjoying my single days!!Of course,don't know why,there is 1 guy today just keep looking at me and his friends asked him to get my no..ha!that is so not trend at all and i just don't bother at all..okies..shall end here!Doing revisons and reports..

10 october!My aunt's birthday!!

Some chinese believe that during someone's birthday,cooking mee-sua is neccessary as it gives prosperity and longetivity to give blessings to the shou xing gong and shou xing po(birthday guy and birthday girl).hahaha!well, today is my 2nd aunt's birthday!!yeaps!what's interesting is today,taiwan is celebrating their national day too!wow!i really enjoyed the mee sua cooked by her today!it's so delicious!!as the mee sua was like a clear distinct needle thread!Even though,it looks simple,but it requires a lot of effort to cook this soupbase!She told me to learn it so that in future,i will be able to cook for everyone.i find it important to learn it as this has to be pass down to generations and i hope this tradition will not just stop here!Sounds really traditional of me!this also made me missed my late grandma who always cook this when i was very young.she took care of me till the time she called home by lord.And,i hope to learn this so as to have memory of her in my heart.She is really a beautiful and a virtuous grandma i ever had!I wished my 2nd aunt a happy birthday and thank you for always taking care of me and my 2 sisters since when we are born ito this world!hahaha!Hope you will always stay strong and determined and last by not least,god bless you and stay happy!!