Heys! it's been sometime i haven't been talking to you!well, as for now, i have really have lots to share..well, i was really very upset for myself that, i did not do well in semester 1 and really worried for myself...as semester 1 , i only scored 3.2..which is quite bad..and till now, i admit i was really unhappy about it..because i think during sem 1 i stressed myself too much which cause my downfall..and this shall be my lesson learnt..Now, i really looking forward to work with my project partner peiru..haha! you know, actually i really never know i can relate to her quite well as she don't open up to people and in fact,after what she told me about her family yesterday, my heart sank to bottom..And she actually cried in front of me beacuse i sounded her out and she showed her emotions out to me..i was glad that she finally open up to me!!Now semester 2 is really crucial period for me and i jsut don't understand why i'm still can't get over my downfall? okies! forget it ISABELLE!!!OKIES? But,for now, i was happy that sem 2 modules are my favourite modules..all biology and statistics!!haha! but...one thing came into my mind..am i going to really make it?i really ask myself this..i don't want to stay in 3.2 forever..i really want to improve..no i should say i must do very well instead!! beacause i have a dream to be accomplish and i must make it happen!! it was to go around and save people's lives,curing their illnesses or even help the criminals or dead people to solve crimes by relieving their grieverances. I know is hard but now i shall really get serious to work for it in every small segment of my school work!! i really want to thank jordan for giving and sharing his converstaion with me this afternoon! But so strange is when i'm always in need of someone listening to me, he and sometimes zhen nan will always be there to lisiten to me..hahaha! And usually, i always pray to god and even tell him about all my fears and worries inside me.there is one time i really feel that my life was like darkness..and i really hide myself in toliet to cry out but silently..i really don't understand why i just can't reach my expectations?WHY??Why my life just always like that since when i was being brought into this world?? i always can never enjoy what i really want to acheive!! Do you know? sometimes, i really hope to have a companion sit beside and i can lean his or her shoulder to cry...but never mind! this is just impossible for me!!Companion?? who will it be?? i don't know..but never mind without a bf, i still can live happily and brave through storms and thunders!!Guys won't fall in love with me, this kind fo girl!hahaha!Jiayous bella!! Come on!! life isn't that scary and bad!! Better days will come to me!! Now, love realtionships shall say goodbye to me forever!! life to be single is really good!!yahoos!!!!