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time for my update!today, i went to my workplace for attire fitting.i was glad that my boss was able to accept me to come back and work.yeahs!!in fact, i was really greatful that i can work for what i want as i really don't like to ask money from my family.i feel that we must have backbone and never bow down to anyone.my colleagues was shocked initially when i came today but after that, they smiled at me and happily asked me if i was doing fine..haha!but my boss was hoping that i can work everyday.yes i wished i can but for now, i have danceworks and clubcrawl and this are really very hectic for me.hence, i told him that i can work for anytime after march.but i was really contented to go back to here,grand hyatt hotel.thanks god and my friend jalini giving me this job.i will really work very hard!besides that, yesterday,st james power station suddenly called me to perform a salsa and latin dance for them!haha! but i rejected their offer!yes i love dancing but it really depends on where it is.Not means that that type of place is prohibited but honestly, i never stepped into a club in my whole life till now!ãnd i also respected my aunt advice of not going to such places.Therefore, i just kindly rejected them.well,i just don't know why there is a tinge of sadness came to me.i was wondering and pounding about my studies..results was going to be out soon.recapping what has happened, i finished 3 of my biology exam papers within 30 mins.was it a good thing or a bad one?it was worrying..because i don't want to score badly just like semester 1.i ound myself a failure.seriously, i was asking myself,what have i achieved?what have got for myself?is like..nothing,nothing at all.sigh..really a flop isabelle..my aunt gave me this name because she was inspired by her friend also named isabelle was a great botanist.but me, what am i?!this is depressing..i'm really failing myself..i'm not successful,i'm not smart or even pretty..i really hope to be like her, isabelle..now what i always do now was to pray to god and told him all about my worries and my thoughts.hopefully, he will understand.i'm sorry god if i can't accomplished what i have promise to you.but i will try my best because is my promise to you.some of the things i know, you have given to me and i really greatful and happy.but i'm working hard on some impossible missions.i wish i can get for what i reap.but my aunt toldme not to be overly ambitious and greedy and i sincerely listened to her advices.elders always give advices which come form their heart.hence, it is wise to heed it or else you will suffer.How true it is.well, i shall stop here and hopefully i can really get what i expected for myself.that will be good enough..