hey my diary!it's quite a long time ever since i talked to you..haha! Finally my cts are over!! well it's a good thing that it is over but however..i worry for another which is results!!! i don't want to have my history repeated once more..sigh..but however i have changed my way of handling in my studies. i did not followed the way i did in past..instead i told myself to relax when studying and not to give myself too much pressure.haha! guess i realised i changed a lot. i realised i was no longer the isabelle in the past.Because i have moved on my life!!But not forgetting my friends who been through thick and thin with me!Frohe weinacheten!!ich liebe est!!woohoo!!(merry christmas i love it!!) in german.hahaha!Prost Neujahr!( happy new year)! yeaps! new year is approaching near the corner too!!wow! i really hope the time can really stop here!!Because every year, i really dread the chinese new year..aww..dread the time of going back to Malaysia..but on account of my aunt, i have to go back..16 years..i have to follow this routine..i find myself that my life is always just so meaningless sometimes..i even ask myself why i can't just stand up and really fight for my rights! why?! i always got chickened out upon hearing that my mum made a scene which turn things ugly..well..now i shall divert my topic..hahaha! what i can hope now is i really must work really hard for my dreams to achieve!!i must also wake up from mistakes made!! start anew form a fresh piece of white paper!! ich woll schreibe mit faber in paper!( i want to write with colours!)And i wish to get a pair of boots for myself and new pair of sneakers!!haha!besides, hope to get somemore new clothes..really desparate on that..just feel like dressing up myself nicely..hahaha!well shall end here..as my brain is switching off..