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back for updates! i realised i took very long time to update my blog!haha!hmm..i was really cooped with my studies as i know myself that i'm not smart,not a good student whom always score well.that is why i need to work harder than other people.Now i was getting worried.because my industrial micro was super horrible compared to the others which were not well done too.why?why must this always happen to me?why can't i get what i want?why i can't outshine others?am i really that useless or lousy?maybe..now it just left a few more weeks to exams..and my studying pace is really slow and not productive. well, perhaps take it slow will be better because no point rushing after all.i won't still score the best even i study much faster than the others.efforts counts and wisdom counts too! but i never give up.i don't believe my studies will never do well,i don't believe i'm a useless person whom has no achievements.i don't believe.seriously.as for dance, after my o school locking course,i spent around 30 mins almost everyday to practise and brush up my techniques and basics.but locking, i really envious of the people whom has the chance to show their talents out.When it will be my turn?i really hope to have this day.just this day when i can really show to so many people i can!so many people are fighting and i guess my chances are really slim..although it actually made me feel disheartened but i still tell myself this day will come to me.keep myself positive.yes!i still believe i can do well in my stduies and hope to get a bursary or maybe a scholarship for myself,hoping to shine on stage one day doing locking.Now, i was planning to work hard in my biolife science sale to save up money to learn popping.it sounds abit impossible but i'm going to venture out this genre..haha!

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Hi! time for updates! well, it has been some time ever since i updated my blog.As for now, so many things happened. and it was not reflecting good after all..i just don't understand why evil triumph over good? it was truly unfair, that witch whom cheated on us in our construction of our new house won the case. it's really infuriating! she is the swindler and she won?! law is really blind and i will never believe that law is fair and square. Now, what we can hope is to see this devil got punished for what she has done to us. i will make sure! and hope she will really suffer worse than death! she is too evil..too evil..i believe god will punish people like her one day..now i was worried for my tests..and i had to tell myself to work really hard as i told mysef before and the resolutions set beforehand for myself. Now i also working hard for my locking..i really wish to join competitions and show my skills but it is really hard to get recognise because in my cca, there are dancers whom also dancing locking but they always fighting for recognisation..when will i get the chance?when? it's so hard but still, i will never give up..i will keep training hard and practise hard. i don't wish to see myself really falling apart and losing my motivation..i have been feeling really upset because so many things happened and i realised i was really useless and incompetent. my studies was not really reflecting well on what i want as for now..really upset and i really hope to fulfil my dreams to really help the people in need and people who suffer grieveances and unfairness. because i'm always in this situation. i really have to step out and lend my hands to them. i will never going to care what people said about me and think about me. they will never agree to what i want to do but i still go ahead for what i want to do.Because this is what i have aim for.

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Hi! updates again! well, i have been really busy for these days and now i'm still having common tests!this time common tests is no more playing matter..and i shall not take it lightly anymore.i became really worry as my human biology paper really like screwed up? sigh..i made so many mistakes and i supposed i lost a lot of marks..i really don't know how it will be like for my grade of this module...now i shall work double hard for my other sections so as to get really really good results for my 1st semester overall.in fact now, suddenly, i missed my days in foreign bodies when i got to see my friends and trained together.As now, i have left around 4 more lessons in O school..but i will also missed the times i spent learning in O school too! because, i really learnt so much in locking and i found myself really love locking so much!! in my room, i would just practise my locking be it relaxing or relieving my study stress..well tommorrow it's my last paper,cell techonology!! i really have to buck up and fight and fight!! Come on!!!shall end here..tschus!

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heys! updates again!haha! i shall start now writing! today, after our make up lesson of human biology practical, philemon,peiru and me went off to do our marketing interview. First, we went to peiru house as she forgot her ezlink card.haha! then we went to philemon house to get his gift for the interviewer. wow! i had a good"adventure" of running house to house.! but it was quite fun which i hought. then we took a taxi to toa payoh which is philemon's mother workplace. we met uncle francis whom is our interviewer. You know, i really learnt so much about apple mac products!our recording time was 12 mins and 23mins! wow! i never expect it would take up that long! As we expect a 2 mins interview by him. And during the proccess of interview, philemon realised that uncle francis was not looking at him but he was looking at me instead! that was what he told me just now when we were having lunch with his mum! peiru was like"eh eh isabelle!" hey! i really don't know!i just smiled wnhen looking at the camera and him!it's a form of respect!haha!then we went to bishan to have lunch again together! philemon surpirsed me as he followed us too! that was really a breakthrough for him as he never goes out with us before!but i really enjoyed going out with them!! haha! we chatted a lot and shopped round junction eight!then after that around 5pm, i went home with philemon and peiru went separate way as she lives in yio chu kang.phil was really shy when he sat beside me and we chatted a lot! i found him open out to me! yeahs! phil! finally you are able to talk well!enjoyed talking to you! he even tagged a lot of comments in my facebook! yeahs! well shall stop here! tschus!

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Hi! updates again! well for today, i went to the it fair with yi qing after doing my school projects and revisions. the it fair in suntec city is really so packed and crowded! wow! yi qing managed to buy a mp3 for herself!haha! but i saw a lot of apple mac, and so many laptops and mp4 so on!haha! then we went to bugis street and junction to shop around. As what my sister val has requested a black frame big spectacles from me, i went to search for the specs and i'm glad that i found it in bugis street and bought it for her! 10 dollars quite worth for it! actually i feel like buying another one but i did not.Because, i need to wait till i have enough money so i can buy one and change the lens.haha! then we met pat and have dinner together! the pepper lunch meal was really nice! it was since ages i ate rice! usually, i don't eat rice and today i was eating it! well, i was quite tired now and studying my tests at the same time. hopefully, i can do well in my studies,dance and even my free lance job. hopefully, i can help as many people as possible with the products i had! i don't expect much but i hope to see improvements! shall stop here! do feel free to tag me! tschus!

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hi! well another update again!! well this 2 weeks are going to be really busy for me! today i had managed to get 2 appointments done within this week!! hopefully can go well! i pray hard for it! today, i had a great time learning locking! new steps and new styles! wow! i really learnt so much and greatly appreciated ian, who is my dance instructor taught us so much for the 2nd lesson of my course!i realised being individual and relaxed is really important!! And locking is a dance with character! well i will have to work hard on this! Neverthless, i have to really study real hard for this common test on week 11!! Gosh! please really do bless me to do really well for my 2nd yr because my 1st yr was really lousy! i don't wish to have my history repeated!! isabelle! you have to really buck up and work double hard! Do you remeber what is your dreams? what is your promise?what is your worth? Don't dwell! Don't procastinate!! time is running out you know?! Be funky in your studies too!! prove it!! to make these people who looked down shut their trap!! i shall make it real short because i need to study and study!

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hi! i'm updating again! well..for now, school was quite tiring for me and i have so much work to do!!projects and reports!!haha! you know, my molecular bio reports had finally gotten back! ahhh! Mr alvin told me he could have given me A grade for both of my reports!1 So sad!!! i got b+ for both of my reports!! why not A??But never mind i will work really hard for my last report! so as my other module reports and tests!! tests coming in week 11!! wow! 2 weeks of studying! i'm afraid time running fast! and i worried i can't catch the time well! isabelle! you jolly well buck up!! no more distractions! no more dilly dally! no more fun time too! well in fact, i don't play! i keep studying and studying! Hopefully can do well this time round! Molecular bio project hopefully can done by this weekend! cos i have compiled the info and ready for sending to philemon! had a good talk with him and i realised he was really a funny person! well, in fact he was really a good friend! he helped me so much! thanks! For now, i really can't wait to learn locking on every fri at o school! it is quite hard but i really loved this class!! but i need to practise!haha! well, everything has to go through hard work! yeaps! Then again, these days in class or in lab, i realised that 1 of my guy classmates was secretly looking at me..is not i'm sensitive but he really does! strange! but i'm not that so attractive that you keep looking at me right?haha! there are so many beautiful girls out there! please don't target me! because i'm a just an ordinary girl! nothing special about me and guys won't fall for a girl like me seriously! for now, relations are always making me lose hope..because guys come and go..well okies! jaiyous for my german tommorrow!! i better do well in german too!! tschus!!

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hi! once again! well, i feel like updating once more as i realised i have not been updating my blog for quite a long time.So far, my life was not as smooth as what i expected..talk about that, i shall touch on what happened recently. last sunday, i had my 2nd appointmnet with my aunt for my comapny venture era. In fact, i was not expecting to close any deal whenever i had my appontments. what i really want is people will respect what we are promoting and what we are selling because i want people to gain benefits from their health. My aunt was suffering from diabeties which is classified type 2 diabeties. It is defined as lifestyle diabeties.it has been haunting her for 30 odd years already and i joined this company is because i did want to changer her life and hope she would get better if i showed her the products.but in fact, this appointment turned out to be very saddening.aS I started off my presentations, my aunt became very defensive and she was full of objections of what i was doing..okay this i don't mind. i know she would object as due to her character but what really hurts me most is after 5mins, she just took her shower towel and walked to the bathroom and left me in the living room staring at my senior.My senior was trying her best to help me as much as possible.I really feel grateful for her as she could tell that i was trying to hold back my emotions. Well, then i just keep my smile and asked if she would contiue to listen to me.Then, my 2nd aunt was giving an expression which showed"if you continue saying, don't regret if i would give a tight slap on your face".that was how she told me through her lips talking. Hnece, i did get a chance to show anything and i sent my senior to downstairs.At the lift, she gave a me a hug and i don't know why i just broke down in front of her. Worst is today that stupid bellecaptain took my name away from the list as i could only work on sundays only.And it already making me felt so upset. i could not hold back anymore so i cried. This is the very first time i cried. I seldom cried in my life because to me, crying is nothing and no one will sympathise you. I always tell myself to be brave and strong because i was alone facing so much and it has all by myself. i kept my problems and never said a single thing to my aunt except my 3rd sis valerie. Because she was the only one who supports what i do.i really feel so thankful lord has give me a wonderful sister who always supports me through my journey in nyp for now. I shall really do very well in my studies,dance and this job so as to show and prove something. And, i hope i can really buy a vest for her which she requested as a promise to me. For now, i can't afford cos i did not earned much but i will try my best val. because it was a promise to you.okies? i really hope i can work hard to get myself promote 2 levels up so as to prove myself and helped as many people as possible. But now seems that, no one supports me for what i am doing..i felt really demoralised after the sunday incident but i really hope just to have support of my friends and people whom i don't know will be good enough..tests is coming in week 11 and i was really worried. i don't wish to be like yr 1 when i did not do well for my tests due to so much distractions. Now, i shall put my full concentrations in my tests and score very well..god please bless me for my journey and what i really aiming for..i don't wish to get tired and upset. i want to become the sunshine girl and the girl who contributes greatly to people around me and people whom i really loved a lot too..please bless me to give me strength to work hard to be come a foreignsic pathologics which is my dream..or child specialist..i hereby sincerely hear from you,my lord.

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hi! wow! it's has been quite a long time ever since i updated my blog. Because i was really too busy with my school work, studying time and my dance..this is as usual for me..haha! Back to the topic now. well, for now, i had not been going to foriegn bodies for like 3 weeks? why? haha! i was having locking dance course at o school!yeahs! finally! i paid for my locking via my salary earned working part time! i felt really happy because everything comes from my own! yesterday in fact, i enjoyed my very first locking course and my instructor, ian was really dope!wow! i wished i could be like him one day! isabelle! work harder okay? don't let your dreams fly away from you! you missed too much! you can't afford to lose again! but still..alot of brushing still need to be done..yeaps! Now..studies and dance are my most important goals i'm aiming really hard. And recently, i was being recruited to venture era as sales agent for biolife science company..i felt really happy working there.thanks to zakir who recruited me in surpirse after talking to me about her definations of biolife..hopefully, i can get promoted as high possible and i'm working hard to make more appointments!! god please help me too! i want to save and help as amny people during this 2yrs in poly and even outside too! My dream was to be come a child specialist or a foriegnsic pathologics but i'm still aiing for these two first because i was very upset that my aunt said i would never make it..but..i'm going to prove to her! no way i'm going to cry just like that?! isabelle! that's not you! recently, andre, he was really a pest, he keep stalking me whereever i'm doing..and i scolded him yesterday in s mooth manner..i can't bring myself to be fierce..and i'm so happy to have my sister,val with me all along..and i love her friends a lot! they made me realised that firends can be really wonderful! i met my 2 simei juniors too! had fun with them! hope one day we can go out together! i'm waiting for this! okies! i shall stop here! i was taking a short break from studying and reports..tschus! jiayous for my german test this friday!

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hi! it has benn quite some time since i updated my blog..because,i'm really busy with my clubcrawl performance coming up in 21 and 22 of april.haha!hence, there is one thing i must really know is to manage my time well and take good care fo myself especially my legs and my health..recently, my legs are giving me cramps and it was really making my life so miserable.it was due to excessive training in danceworks which was over for 2 weeks.but danceworks really made me level up my standards.i realised i improved a lot ever since joining my very first competition in hip hop!wow, i also can't believe that i had really made myself such a big step towards it!however, i have decided to drop my ballroom in cca.because, my body really can't take it anymore and it has been giving me red light.doctor also advised me to stop straining myself and i need a lot time and concentration to really buck up my studies as it was not reflecting well.3.2 gpa was really bad.this won't get me anything.no director list,no burasaries and even awards for further studies!hence, i shall say goodbye to ballroom!but in this way i may feel happier as no more humilations,ostracising!but i shall continue my latin in shawn and gladys dance world!well, now, i try my best to finish up my library books and at least able to let me get exposure i my upcoming modules!no matter how, this yr 2, i'm gng to get the best results!!no more guys coming to me and no more admierers!give me a break!!because,i'm single but unavaliable!!heart does not change for me!!tschus!!

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it's time for my updates again!firstly, i was very happy to meet my sis,patricia and soulmate,yi qing!yeahs!we went to bugis for shopping around and i found a shop which sells a reasonable price sneakers!oh my, talk about that, my heart was really aching when this has reminded me that i bought a 135 dollars sneakers from leftfoot!that was so expensive!!ouch ouch!mysalary!!that was what i whined to both of them as the sneakers i saw yesterday were much far cheaper than the one i bought!hence, i told myself that once i got my salary, i shall use small amount of money to buy this sneakers!and the clothes shop which was quite cheap too!yi qing suggested me to ask her out again once my salary was deposit into my account for buying these things i told her.as for now, i'm really very busy in my dance.but my loves for locking was getting more and more!what i had planned was to earn more money and register at o school to learn locking and go for competitions hopefully.But one thing was,what i have decided was to stopmy latin for quite some time in my cca.to concetrate and work super hard in my academics.because i must use this time to push my gpa up to 3.5 above!it maybe hard but i told myself that i chose a more tougher and harder route so i can't turn back anymore.i shall move on for greater heights.then, i will progress my latin in shawn and gladys danceworld.in fact, i may feel happy once i leave this cca as the people over there are making me feel humilated.they made me feel left out by not giving me any important dances for me to take part even though they know i can show it out.my friend,leela supported me to continue dancing latin outside and go on for greater heights and find the best partner to go for competitions.Hopefully, i can do well in my studies,locking and in foriegn bodies.kelly,my fb friend, told me that she loves my style for dancing and strangely was she said i always stand out from the others.haha!so many of my friends also said that!they said it was really a good thing that a dancer can standout form the crowd.that was a bad point as in team work i suffered a lot.unique me!Now, i shall put in all my best in everything i'm going to do and face!i hope god will also bless me by giving me strength and hopes pin to me.not only, also hope he bless me with wisdom too and judgment.hereby you hear my prayers ,god.amen!

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time for me to update.well, now i was feeling really upset with myself..because this time round my results didn't really imrpove..it's all bs..really nonsense!i really hate that..and my gpa was really lousy once more..it was disappointing..perhaps i think god was punishing me.as i was aim too much and he thinks i'm greedy.Hence, to prevent that to happen to me, i shall not always lose temper when things can't work well and being so "disrespectful".i felt so guilty about this.I never did what i have promised to my aunt.She was not disappointed but she told me 1 thing.she advised me to give up my latin and concentrate more on my studies and foriegn bodies.came thinking that, although i was struggling inside me but i feel that maybe i shall not be too involved in my ballroom anymore.Because firstly, i have no partner and secondly,my seniors was ostrasizing me as they feel that i was a traitor as i was a fb member so most of the performances, they always try to cut my part and in fact what i always do was to do very well and show out all my ability.that was to shut their trap and prove them totally wrong.Now, hopefully i can find a partner soon.but studies comes first.i'm going to fully make use well my remaining 2 yrs to climb up fast and real high.i'm not going to let the other people to step on my head.i'm going to do what i have sweared to promise my aunt and going to overseas for my attachment.

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today,i heard of one story and felt quite sad and confused at same time.it begins in ths way: a girl and a guy,known for each other since in their secondary school life.this guy was always being with her no matter what happened to her,be it having other relationships problems,family problems and so on..when she was feeling really upset, he would generously lent her a shoulder to cry on.hence, as time goes by,this girl has developed feelings towards to this guy. but,she could not expressed and confessed to him.because, if she told him about this,their friendship may jepardised.all along, this girl kept it in her heart till now.but she felt really painful as she has suppressed her feelings for a very long time and maybe it shall always remained as a secret..that really gave me so much thoughts. why can't they be together?why can't a girl and a guy who really deep in love can't be together even it has been so long?why?i really don't know..it pains me.i won't mind anything if i really love the right guy.i won't mind waiting for him,i won't mind if we can't get married and i won't mind he's not rich not good looking.i won't mind if he was unable to give me a status if he really don't have the ability.so as long i can stay with and give him what i have and what i can..is really good enough and contented..

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time for my update!today, i went to my workplace for attire fitting.i was glad that my boss was able to accept me to come back and work.yeahs!!in fact, i was really greatful that i can work for what i want as i really don't like to ask money from my family.i feel that we must have backbone and never bow down to anyone.my colleagues was shocked initially when i came today but after that, they smiled at me and happily asked me if i was doing fine..haha!but my boss was hoping that i can work everyday.yes i wished i can but for now, i have danceworks and clubcrawl and this are really very hectic for me.hence, i told him that i can work for anytime after march.but i was really contented to go back to here,grand hyatt hotel.thanks god and my friend jalini giving me this job.i will really work very hard!besides that, yesterday,st james power station suddenly called me to perform a salsa and latin dance for them!haha! but i rejected their offer!yes i love dancing but it really depends on where it is.Not means that that type of place is prohibited but honestly, i never stepped into a club in my whole life till now!ãnd i also respected my aunt advice of not going to such places.Therefore, i just kindly rejected them.well,i just don't know why there is a tinge of sadness came to me.i was wondering and pounding about my studies..results was going to be out soon.recapping what has happened, i finished 3 of my biology exam papers within 30 mins.was it a good thing or a bad one?it was worrying..because i don't want to score badly just like semester 1.i ound myself a failure.seriously, i was asking myself,what have i achieved?what have got for myself?is like..nothing,nothing at all.sigh..really a flop isabelle..my aunt gave me this name because she was inspired by her friend also named isabelle was a great botanist.but me, what am i?!this is depressing..i'm really failing myself..i'm not successful,i'm not smart or even pretty..i really hope to be like her, isabelle..now what i always do now was to pray to god and told him all about my worries and my thoughts.hopefully, he will understand.i'm sorry god if i can't accomplished what i have promise to you.but i will try my best because is my promise to you.some of the things i know, you have given to me and i really greatful and happy.but i'm working hard on some impossible missions.i wish i can get for what i reap.but my aunt toldme not to be overly ambitious and greedy and i sincerely listened to her advices.elders always give advices which come form their heart.hence, it is wise to heed it or else you will suffer.How true it is.well, i shall stop here and hopefully i can really get what i expected for myself.that will be good enough..

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well, i shall not put any title on this post once more..haha!guess what, due to yesterday learning of regaee and locking, my aps are really in deep pain now..plus this morning steneous excercise and training of my latin..ouch!!i feel like tired and beat..not only that, i feel like dying too!oh man!!this is really killing me softly!!after that, i still meet my friends too at douby ghaut and walked to smu university for lunch and some board games..it was quite fun actually.haha! i enjoyed myself but i kept dozing off...that was rude..but i don'tmean it..feel so sorry about this..hahah!then i went back home with jun kai,alex and zi qin.zi qin was having a terrible sinus and his nose was as red as a rudolf reindeer!haha!no offence zi qin!!haha!well i shall make it a short one..cos my energy was really low now..and i can't hang on already..i really want to have someone's shoulder to lean on and hug on..

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Updates!! Now,in meantime preparing for danceworks,foreign bodies are planning for clubcrawl!!wow! can't imagine the very first fb t shirt we will recieving!!getting a bit excited but....bear in mind,studies comes 1st!!yes!!definitely!!today, i really got the chance to get 1 of the senior,mike to teach us locking!!i really enjoyed it and i was happy that i grasped the basics quite fast and immediately!!but of cos,there are more to come..hahaha!i will be waiting to learn more because i really love locking and wants to get specialised in this!!besides, i have also learnt regaee!!ha! that's the most hardest part!! my waves and hands still need more coordiantion!!hahah!but at least, i managed to get the basics right and techniques too!!then,to add on,i spent the whole morning with jennifer and her primary school friend,le xuan!!haha! talk about that, i never know i can click so well with le xuan!!wow man, we talked about korea guys shinee!!hahaha! her husband!!just joking then..hahahah!we really talked non stop!!from the time i met her in library till the time i need to went to nyp..hahah!but as for jen..actually, today i was quite a bit sad for her..cos when le xuan went to the restroom, she immediately breakdown in front of me,telling me that her aunt may pass away anytime..my heart really sank to the bottomless pit..but i hold back my emotions as there are people around..so i hereby prayed hard that her aunt will live long..please!!don't give jen so much misery!!she had enough!!she had enough!!hope god may bless her!!isabelle will always be with you jen!!okies..my body was aching like mad now..shall stop here!!

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back to my updates!! well as usual, i have dance practice for everyday from now on till after my danceworks.haha! it is really tiring..but i feel that i have learn a lot form here.i don't have hip hop background so compared to my dancemates, i was quite lose out.so i have to work more harder than other people.Now, i really yearn to learn locking.hopefully,within this month,i can learn at least the basics of locking.now,although our cheoreo was quite slow,but i believe my group will definitely do very well as we have such a good cheroegraphers!!Jiayous!!we can do it!!although we are slow, but slow can make things better!!agreed?haha!just don't understand why my steps still don't show well..i feel so sad about it..but never mind, i'm going to improve and keep practising it!!had a good time dancing today and i met leela!haha! and we had dinner together and we talked a lot too!!well, that all for today updates!i'm really quite tired now.oh ya, by the way, this guy,jason has managed to change for the better.he has managed to self control himself after i had talked to him so many times.but when he confessed to me, i did not accept him and did not meet him.because i will never fall in love with other guys..

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well for now, i shall not put any subheadings for my entry..haha!this whole month shall be my most busiest month till school reopens!! of course is none other than my dancing!!haha!but of course part time too!but i think my part time job shall start the following week! so i have to catch up my time with friends too! it has been so long that i have seen them!my ite classmates which is my usual gang!!haha!miss them so much!!ahhhh!! i'm so frustrated today because i keep forgetting my steps and cheoreo!!bella isabelle!!how could you!!how could you be so lousy!!ahhhhhhh!! my brain is really so lousy man!!concentrate please!!hence, no way i will let myself to drop!i must practise till everything is ok!!i'm not going to give up!!yea!!jiayous isabelle!!okies! i'm so worn out now..but i will not let it cause my downfall!!

misses...

heys!back to updates!! well, i finally can have fun with my friends,pat,yi qing and 2 of their classmates,yi xian and wee ling!!wow!! i really enjoyed this outing because it has been a long time ever since we met up!! we went for bowling at kallang bowling centre!! hey you know, that is the very first time i have stepped into bowling centre and first time have a feel of how bowling really likes..hahahah! i'm so xua gu!!hahahhaah!but it is my first time!!as i have never played bowling before in all my 20 years of life??hahahahah! actually we did planned for ice skating but when we saw the price....oh man!!the $$$$...forget it then..hahahahha!but i really have a good experience of taking the bowling ball and it is really heavy and i was like carrying a watermelon!!haha! but strangely is, i never know i scored quite moderately..as i just followed how the bowlers played.but we really enjoyed this game!woohoo!!after bowling, we went for lunch cum dinner. we went to the japanese restaurant for buffet!Guess what? we ate quite a lot that we felt so bloated!!but the food were indeed delicious and worth it after all!!then after that, we went home but yi qing asked me to tag along with her to tampines mall for shopping of her cosmetics..hahah! and i got a membership card as she bought the amount exceeded the requirements!!haha!so we talked a lot regarding about relationships.she asked me how's relationship with this guy ,sean.In fact, i had never had a relationship at all.as guys walked away from me when it's near to getting into it.it's kind of sad but well that's really me.i'm just not suitable to have a bf after all.guys just treat me like a jinx.never want to be with me.but i can understand because, they will never want to be a girl who just lives in the world of dancing and studying.boring girl..that what they might be thinking.haha! but i was not upset after all but i just felt lost initially..actually, when this guy date me out, although physically i'm beside him but my heart is somewhere else.i realised i just can't lay my heart on him.i can't.seriously..i can't accept another guy again.hence, i stay single and i found that it was a release to me..and now studies and dance shall be my everything!! competition coming!belle!!jiayous!! or bella la!hahahahah!

Holidays!!

heys! it's has been ages since i have updated my blog..haha!because i have exams to handle..talk about that, i really hope this time round, i can really do well and i really want to!!hopefully can!well, it's holidays! but is not holidays for me after all.why do i say that?Aiya, dance copetition coming and performances coming up too.hence,i can't avoid training and practising..hahaha! Not only that, i also have to work part time for my own allowance.And, i really need money!!money!money!aww...i really desparate for you!!i want to buy this shoes which i had seen at this particular shoe shop and this clothes and this and that...ahhhh!! money still speaks the loudest!!MONEY!!haha!okay enough of money!that makes me sound like i'm so money minded..well, all this time, i really got sick and tired of these guys coming to me and sweet talked to me how much they love me, how much they want to get me..CRAP!!all is bullshiting!!that what i want to say!! what love relationships?!that is crap!!so what if they got me? in the end, they will just completely ignore me and just walked out of me.Okay! i had enough of their nonsense!!what communication breakdown?lame excuses!He might as well just say i don't love you!!that will be the best to let me know!to save his breath..hhaha!Now i shall really enjoy my singlehood!!to me, what i really hope is to find a guy who actually really knows how to love me and knows what i really want..i don't expect so much but to hope they know my existence and really loves me a lot..anyway i really thank my few of my friends who showed concern for me when i was terribly sick and lost..i really feel touched!!thanks hazi , zee,fiona and faz who gave the confidence that i'm capable to achieve!!zhennan too!!samuel wishes too!i heard of somethings which i find quite true..if a guy still loves you, he will come to you eventually..how true it is..but a girl although they said they don't love you, never believe thses words, because, they still loves you more than you do..

heys! so long ever since i have updated you, my diary!!haha!well now is already in the year of 2010!! recapping 2009, it wasn't a great year for me..why? because 2009, i did not do so well in my semester and even in my other aspect..everything just not in place and not even up to my expectations..and i got very stressed up and upset about it..so well..shoo!!2009!! hopefully 2010 i will do even much better than before!!haha! in fact, i have set myself some resolutions and hopefully i can really accomplished it(at most 80% will do).these are what i really set for myself: getting 3.5 and above for this sem 2.pull up my socks if my tests does not reflect well.Get myself to learn locking in hip hop and get to higher level in my locking.seek improvemnets in my latin and hopefully can find partner within this year. do well in every small segements of my studies and projects.learn to be more discreet and open up to different people. always do well in all my performances and be more confident be it in dance and studies. Be a better girlfriend.hahah! how come i set that as my resolution? Because, although things may not always be perfect as what you want to be, but at least, i want to try to. Finding and accepting someone you love is really hard. it really fortunate to have someone who loves you..therefore, i told myself, this relationship, i must really treasure well..and really hoping to give what i have and what i can..in fact, i'm really proud to be in relationship!!haha! i don't know what will happen in future but no matter how,i will hold this tight and cherish it..