updates

hi! once again! well, i feel like updating once more as i realised i have not been updating my blog for quite a long time.So far, my life was not as smooth as what i expected..talk about that, i shall touch on what happened recently. last sunday, i had my 2nd appointmnet with my aunt for my comapny venture era. In fact, i was not expecting to close any deal whenever i had my appontments. what i really want is people will respect what we are promoting and what we are selling because i want people to gain benefits from their health. My aunt was suffering from diabeties which is classified type 2 diabeties. It is defined as lifestyle diabeties.it has been haunting her for 30 odd years already and i joined this company is because i did want to changer her life and hope she would get better if i showed her the products.but in fact, this appointment turned out to be very saddening.aS I started off my presentations, my aunt became very defensive and she was full of objections of what i was doing..okay this i don't mind. i know she would object as due to her character but what really hurts me most is after 5mins, she just took her shower towel and walked to the bathroom and left me in the living room staring at my senior.My senior was trying her best to help me as much as possible.I really feel grateful for her as she could tell that i was trying to hold back my emotions. Well, then i just keep my smile and asked if she would contiue to listen to me.Then, my 2nd aunt was giving an expression which showed"if you continue saying, don't regret if i would give a tight slap on your face".that was how she told me through her lips talking. Hnece, i did get a chance to show anything and i sent my senior to downstairs.At the lift, she gave a me a hug and i don't know why i just broke down in front of her. Worst is today that stupid bellecaptain took my name away from the list as i could only work on sundays only.And it already making me felt so upset. i could not hold back anymore so i cried. This is the very first time i cried. I seldom cried in my life because to me, crying is nothing and no one will sympathise you. I always tell myself to be brave and strong because i was alone facing so much and it has all by myself. i kept my problems and never said a single thing to my aunt except my 3rd sis valerie. Because she was the only one who supports what i do.i really feel so thankful lord has give me a wonderful sister who always supports me through my journey in nyp for now. I shall really do very well in my studies,dance and this job so as to show and prove something. And, i hope i can really buy a vest for her which she requested as a promise to me. For now, i can't afford cos i did not earned much but i will try my best val. because it was a promise to you.okies? i really hope i can work hard to get myself promote 2 levels up so as to prove myself and helped as many people as possible. But now seems that, no one supports me for what i am doing..i felt really demoralised after the sunday incident but i really hope just to have support of my friends and people whom i don't know will be good enough..tests is coming in week 11 and i was really worried. i don't wish to be like yr 1 when i did not do well for my tests due to so much distractions. Now, i shall put my full concentrations in my tests and score very well..god please bless me for my journey and what i really aiming for..i don't wish to get tired and upset. i want to become the sunshine girl and the girl who contributes greatly to people around me and people whom i really loved a lot too..please bless me to give me strength to work hard to be come a foreignsic pathologics which is my dream..or child specialist..i hereby sincerely hear from you,my lord.