hey my diary!it's quite a long time ever since i talked to you..haha! Finally my cts are over!! well it's a good thing that it is over but however..i worry for another which is results!!! i don't want to have my history repeated once more..sigh..but however i have changed my way of handling in my studies. i did not followed the way i did in past..instead i told myself to relax when studying and not to give myself too much pressure.haha! guess i realised i changed a lot. i realised i was no longer the isabelle in the past.Because i have moved on my life!!But not forgetting my friends who been through thick and thin with me!Frohe weinacheten!!ich liebe est!!woohoo!!(merry christmas i love it!!) in german.hahaha!Prost Neujahr!( happy new year)! yeaps! new year is approaching near the corner too!!wow! i really hope the time can really stop here!!Because every year, i really dread the chinese new year..aww..dread the time of going back to Malaysia..but on account of my aunt, i have to go back..16 years..i have to follow this routine..i find myself that my life is always just so meaningless sometimes..i even ask myself why i can't just stand up and really fight for my rights! why?! i always got chickened out upon hearing that my mum made a scene which turn things ugly..well..now i shall divert my topic..hahaha! what i can hope now is i really must work really hard for my dreams to achieve!!i must also wake up from mistakes made!! start anew form a fresh piece of white paper!! ich woll schreibe mit faber in paper!( i want to write with colours!)And i wish to get a pair of boots for myself and new pair of sneakers!!haha!besides, hope to get somemore new clothes..really desparate on that..just feel like dressing up myself nicely..hahaha!well shall end here..as my brain is switching off..

hey my diary! So long ever since i come and talk to you!! I just want to vent out my frustrations inside me!! it was really shiity to get a stupid warning letter for no reason!!! hey i did have special and valid reasons!! why must i get it? that was SO UNFAIR!!! Okies!! enough of that!! just not worth it!! and i'm going to prove that they are in wrong!! Tests coming and what really pounders me are my fears because of semester 1 results..this is worrying beacause i don't want to repeat my downfall and mistakes made..it was already painful enough and i was like reaally feel so bottom of the world..now both my IT and biostatistic project are done!! and done last week!! but pray hard i can score well as it carries certain amount of weightage..in fact, i was happy that for biostat, me and doraline did quite neatly and we put in so much inside..just hope what we can really score well!! may god bless us!! and also hope god will bless me in my tests..really hope so..cos i don't want to suffer anymore..what i can do now..is to really prove everything that can made a difference and climb high!!