Heys! it's been sometime i haven't been talking to you!well, as for now, i have really have lots to share..well, i was really very upset for myself that, i did not do well in semester 1 and really worried for myself...as semester 1 , i only scored 3.2..which is quite bad..and till now, i admit i was really unhappy about it..because i think during sem 1 i stressed myself too much which cause my downfall..and this shall be my lesson learnt..Now, i really looking forward to work with my project partner peiru..haha! you know, actually i really never know i can relate to her quite well as she don't open up to people and in fact,after what she told me about her family yesterday, my heart sank to bottom..And she actually cried in front of me beacuse i sounded her out and she showed her emotions out to me..i was glad that she finally open up to me!!Now semester 2 is really crucial period for me and i jsut don't understand why i'm still can't get over my downfall? okies! forget it ISABELLE!!!OKIES? But,for now, i was happy that sem 2 modules are my favourite modules..all biology and statistics!!haha! but...one thing came into my mind..am i going to really make it?i really ask myself this..i don't want to stay in 3.2 forever..i really want to improve..no i should say i must do very well instead!! beacause i have a dream to be accomplish and i must make it happen!! it was to go around and save people's lives,curing their illnesses or even help the criminals or dead people to solve crimes by relieving their grieverances. I know is hard but now i shall really get serious to work for it in every small segment of my school work!! i really want to thank jordan for giving and sharing his converstaion with me this afternoon! But so strange is when i'm always in need of someone listening to me, he and sometimes zhen nan will always be there to lisiten to me..hahaha! And usually, i always pray to god and even tell him about all my fears and worries inside me.there is one time i really feel that my life was like darkness..and i really hide myself in toliet to cry out but silently..i really don't understand why i just can't reach my expectations?WHY??Why my life just always like that since when i was being brought into this world?? i always can never enjoy what i really want to acheive!! Do you know? sometimes, i really hope to have a companion sit beside and i can lean his or her shoulder to cry...but never mind! this is just impossible for me!!Companion?? who will it be?? i don't know..but never mind without a bf, i still can live happily and brave through storms and thunders!!Guys won't fall in love with me, this kind fo girl!hahaha!Jiayous bella!! Come on!! life isn't that scary and bad!! Better days will come to me!! Now, love realtionships shall say goodbye to me forever!! life to be single is really good!!yahoos!!!!

School time and showcase!!

heys! it's been quite some time i have not updated my diary!!haha!Because till now,i'm still very sick and i'm glad i have just escaped from the deathgod last saturday..My aunt really saved me from him or else i shall bid goodbye to this world already.this sounds like a joke but it is not to me at all.Because,this occured to me at least quite a lot times!but i prayed to god and told him not to take me away as i have not accomplished what i really want to and i have not done well for this round and i need him to give me time to amend my loss and strive hard for my studies in order to achieve my dream to save people's lives at everywhere i go in future.I suppose he agreed to me and let me off for this round.Thank you god!i shall repay your kindness for not taking my life all this time when i'm suffering form severe cough which nearly cause bronchitis.School started and of course,my showcase coming this friday!!wow that's fast!this semester is really a great challenge to me as the modules i'm studying is really a lot brainwork but i love it!!hahaha!beacause it is sort of a recapping work to me as i came across during my colleage east days!!haha!it's time to get back on my feet after my downfall and sickness!it may be hard in future for me but i shall face it with smiles and natural heart feel!Hope god will bless me with this and agree on my terms!Is so nice of jordan who came and asked about my life during holidays!!hahaha! but i always forgot to ask his msn and facebook!!aww...but is okies..i will still get the chance to see him as he is the same course as me!But i like express my thanks to people who concerned about my sickness all along!i was so touched!thanks!now i felt so relaxed as no more stupid problems bothering to me as i'm enjoying my single days!!Of course,don't know why,there is 1 guy today just keep looking at me and his friends asked him to get my no..ha!that is so not trend at all and i just don't bother at all..okies..shall end here!Doing revisons and reports..

10 october!My aunt's birthday!!

Some chinese believe that during someone's birthday,cooking mee-sua is neccessary as it gives prosperity and longetivity to give blessings to the shou xing gong and shou xing po(birthday guy and birthday girl).hahaha!well, today is my 2nd aunt's birthday!!yeaps!what's interesting is today,taiwan is celebrating their national day too!wow!i really enjoyed the mee sua cooked by her today!it's so delicious!!as the mee sua was like a clear distinct needle thread!Even though,it looks simple,but it requires a lot of effort to cook this soupbase!She told me to learn it so that in future,i will be able to cook for everyone.i find it important to learn it as this has to be pass down to generations and i hope this tradition will not just stop here!Sounds really traditional of me!this also made me missed my late grandma who always cook this when i was very young.she took care of me till the time she called home by lord.And,i hope to learn this so as to have memory of her in my heart.She is really a beautiful and a virtuous grandma i ever had!I wished my 2nd aunt a happy birthday and thank you for always taking care of me and my 2 sisters since when we are born ito this world!hahaha!Hope you will always stay strong and determined and last by not least,god bless you and stay happy!!

Showcase and upcoming events!

Hi my diary..these days i have been busy with my pre showcase which is today!!Wow! it's fast!hahaha!but i was kind of worry for myself..why?because,i have been working till yesterday and i did have the time to practise my group's cheoreography..so yesterday i immediately rushed from work and met jamie to help me in the cheoreography.It's really considered a challenge to me as i had managed to learn and memorised all the cheoreography within 1 day only!!hahaha!But i really want to thank jamie for teaching the cheoreo and standardised the steps for us.Not only that,i also want to thank her for understand that i had to work and dance at same time,causing me unable to make it on time everytime.i'm really so selfish!!I feel really so bad yesterday as i kept lagging behind the timing of the music!to me is really a flop!even though,i can execute all the moves!But 1 thing which made me slightly happier is the seniors commented that my group has a creative cheoreo!Now what worries me is school going to start soon in within a week!Because i had to work even more harder in my studies and juggle 2 sides of my dance clubs:latin and foriegn bodies!!Somemore,latin performances are coming up in november!!And today, i was unable to attend the class as i'm sick.Oh man!i hate to miss a single thing but what to do?!my body just won't listen to me!it is showing symptoms of rejection of what i'm intending to do!Anyway,no point whining!what i can do now is try to catch up and improve my mistakes and learn as much as i can!push myself hard but not too extreme.As the exam showcase is coming up on 23rd october!!what's more?it will be held at the dome of my school during our big gathering with the former seniors of fbodz!i hope i can do well this time round and show what i can!This pre show shall serve as a warning to me to know where i stand for the time being..Now next week, i have to choose wisely for 2 genres for my audition of the big fbodz production in 2010!Well, just have to give all my best!shall end here as feeling unwell and doing some science readings..bye!

Unusual incidents

Heys!Well, as usual i went to work for my part time but this time round,i will be working in afternoon shift.hahaha!To me, i realise i'm more active in afternoon shift compared to morning shift.As afternoon shift has more people coming in and out.Besides,there will always have at least 2 to 3 of my colleagues will be chatting with me.haha!I really enjoyed talking to them!But there is are at least 2 special incident happened today.One is a sad incident and the other is a blessing disguise incident.haha! Now, i shall add more details for that.The first incident was a limping father hitting his daughter in front of everyone at the hotel lobby.Frankly,i really blamed myself for opening the door to allow the father to stepped forward and hit his own daughter.I saw him dashing out and just gave his daughter a hard smack on her head.And you know, her daughter was like helping him to carry a bulky bag and this is what he treated her?Ridiculous!I was really shocked and i really want to step forward and protect her at that time but my supervisor was there and i was not allowed to leave my work area without special permission.AWWW~!I kept looking out,just to assured if the girl was alright or not.The girl was not at all.She was crying her eyes out and worse,she got scoldings from her mother!That is horrible!It really irks me when a parent just don't understand his children!As, this family,stepped in the hotel,i gave a light pat on the little boy's shoulder to assured him and signalled him to comfort his sister.The boy looked at me pitifully and it pains my heart..Well,proceed on to the next one,this incident is about a korean businessman dropped his handphone in one of the taxi.when i opened the door for him,he searched his pockets frantically..so i asked him if he need any assistance.he told me he dropped his something so i refered him to deniza(my colleague cum friend).she brought him to the bellcounter and i saw her calling.A few minutes later,Deniza came and told me the cabbie found his phone and was on his way to returned it.Thank goodness! the phone was found! My bellecaptain,liza was so elated!hahaha!And it was really a blessing in disguise!haha!Today, deniza switched her shift with me.so i was happy that i can go home early by 8pm!!wohoo!As deniza can't amke it for the 12 pm shift.yeaps!Well, it's getting late and i need to wake up slightly early tommorrow!so shall end here!Guten morgen!

Lethargic!!

Hi! Here comes a new update of my diary! Today is quite a tiring day for me as there were two weddings held at my workplace.Not only that, there were many check ins and check outs from the guests.hahaha!And i had to helped my collegues to pull the bulkiy luagguages.But i enjoyed as my guy colleagues bought me roti prata and thosai for my lunch!I would really want to express my gratitude to them! so sweet of them!hahaha!Then, i also met a very sweet and cute little girl who came in front of me and gave a small handshake!her hand was really small!Just like when i was around her age like 3 to 4 years old.haha!Oh! she is really so sweet!hahaha! she really made me fall in love with her!hahaha! Suddenly, i even wished that i could have such a cute and sweet child just like her!What am i dreaming?hahaha!That is so not like me!But i can't deny i really love kids a lot! they really bring joy to everyone even though they can be quite a nuiscance at times!hahaha!Well, afterall, to day was really tiring that when having my short break,i sat down and streteched my legs till i dozed off on my legs!!It's not the first time but..i'm working!!How can i sleep during work?ISABELLE!!hahaha!Luckily, no one caught me doing this!Meanwhile,when i went back and continued working,my colleague cel(she is from phillipines and she is really beautiful) told me that she wanted to get pregnant when she happened to saw the kids playing ctaching.hahaha!Then she asked me,when you going to get yourself a bf?i was like nonchalant.because, to me this topic is really an abstract topic and i had no answer to this.I can aswer so many things except this.hahaha!That is so funny and ironic! Okies! shall end here due to my tiredness..yeaps!more updates!

3rd october 2009

hey! Guess why i named it this way? Because today there are a lot people are celebrating their birthday.haha! well, Today,khai met me at pasir ris to go to Aki's birthday party.hahaha!Pasir ris! The palce where i lived for around 19 years!My Home!I got so emotional when i told this to khai!She was laughing at me and she told me:"yes! isabelle! you are home dear!"haha!And both us really admired the blind singer!Wow! he sang so well! of course1 we donated quite a lot money to him!i was really happy i had did a good deed!Aki's party turned out to be so hilarious!Because,we nearly had neartattack due to the bursting of ballons!hahaha! There is one is so funny! he covered his ears and so scared that he don't even dare to move a single steps!wahahahaha!Aki was laughing at him and we joined in the laughter with her!She took 1 and half hours to doll up herself in the toliet.Meanwhile,we watched singapore idol encore to kill time.then Zulfar started to talk about Korean Bands and singers.hahaha!That was a great topic because we love to lsiten to korean songs! we even talked about one of the band,super junior.hahaha! The "sorry,sorry" song was so heated up due their significant dance moves.Khai and i felt so bad because we did not get the chance to cut aki's bithday cake!her birthday cake is really very appealing!it is shape of key!As she just turned 21 and the key represents freedom.yeaps!Then khai and me went home by train and we shared a lot about our school life and even scandals by our friends including me,myself!hahah! seems that i left a lot memories in college east!hahaha!But that time, how i wihed i can really send her home to jurong east station but she don't allowed as she knew i had work tommorrow morning.So she gave a tight hug and i felt like tearing..Because, i really don't know when i will have the time to meet her again as she has portfolio to complete for her admission to laselle next year.Love you loads Khai!Hope to see you again my dearest capricon and january sister!Shall end here!

Profound

Heys! Today is really quite tiring for me as everyone in foreign bodies are preparing for the upcoming 2nd dance exam!Oh my! counting down to this day is only left around 1 week!Time flies!But glad that we have made a great progress on our dance steps even though we haven't complete our cheoreography..haha!Take it naturally! it will work out!I believe and i hope to capture everything well because i have to work and dance at same time..and i'm trying to commit as much as i could!Now,besides working hard for my future university,also for the dance courses(hip hop,latin) which i want and being encouraged by my latin seniors.And..of course the shoes for hip hop!My shoes are going to say goosbye to me anytime..aww!sad!it has being with me for at least 4 to 5 years!After my dance cheoreo,on my way out from school,i met vincent(my latin dancemate) with his friends.So we went home together as he lived at sengkang too.haha!While waiting for the bus,we had an interesting conversion and suddenly,he talked about relationships.He told me a lot people don't understand what is true meaning of love.i agreed with him because he told me a lot cules are in love with motives.That is so depressing when i heard that.He told me that a true love is when each party love unconditionally,without any ulteriror motives.This really enlightened me even though it is just a simple and short sentence.the we sat on the bus watching the chef's show on channel 8.hahaha! we even discussed on who is the winner of the chef contest!And happen we predicted correctly!hahaha!Then he even advised me how to handle my studies in a correct way and he even pointed out what goes wrong with ways of studying.I learnt a lot and realised i was too rush!It's time i should make a change!i shall not repeat my mstakes again and let history repeat!I really thank him a lot for telling me so many things! well, i shall end here! beacause i'm going to figure out the steps for my exam and study some science notes to prepare for 2nd semester!

Children's day!!

Hey diary! today is children's day and it is my sister valerie and my dance partner cum companinion Elenor's(suhailah) birthday!i missed my su so much actually.because, she reminded me the times when we got to performed and dance together.we first met in dance elective and she was really a great dancer in latin! then that is where i got to know her latin guy partner, sky.hahaha! I remembered after sometime we got along well in dance,she told me that sky has a crush on me..when i partner with him..hahaha!my reaction was nonchalant.hahhaa!As sky confided to her when she asked him why he kept looking at me..hahah!But monday, i really enjoyed the locking class conducted by my seniors!hahaha!but i really admire my senior daphane and jin!hahaha! they are really good! how i wished i can attained to be at their level! but i will work hard!besides, at my workplace at grand hyatt, there is this particular guy looked at me till his girlfriend hit his head real hard!hahaha!Not only that, there is guy who is around the same age as me,working as a waiter for part-time,also like this guy!there's one time when he's waiting for the customer to come and collect mooncakes,i realised his eyes was looking at my direction straightly!at first, i just gave him a smile and opened the door.but then,he just kept looking until my boss called him till he responded!hahaha! oh please! what's so nice looking at?i'm not that attractive!i'm just an ordianry girl!Holidays are ending soon!but i learnt to accept it and of course,can't wait to go back to school and work very hard for this coming semester to amend my lousy results for the first round!hahaha!Shall take it naturally and calm but not like last time being such a nervous wreck!hahaha!Now, i really feeling unwell and i will just go for my preparation for junior exam and skipped the exact class.But i hope my sister val will really scored well in her o levels to do my aunt proud!but at my workplace, everytime i had to entertain he questions of when am i getting a bf?hahah!Please don't ever ask this! i am not interested at this at all!And they even introduced some guys to me!hahaha! Thanks a lot! i do appreciate but i just want to be happy just like now!hahaha!Okies shall end here!