My first entry of diary

Hi! this is my first entry of my diary! Holidays are here! After all is time for me to relax and rest.However, i don't understand i can't really sleep well and my mind just can't stop thinking of my results...I keep giving myself a lot expectations to strive for what i want as i know that i went up to path which is longer than other people and failed too many times in the past.To be very honest, I was really very upset to found out that my best friend,jen just got cancer.I told myself that i will not cry when i know it.Because i suppose she won't want to see me get emotional about her condition.But i believe strongly that she will get well soon! May god really watch over and bless her! Recently, my aunt jus got out from the hospital.And now after my exams, i spend most of the time to take care fo her..although on surface, i don't show my feelings that i was worried for her but in fact, i did feel that inside my heart...Because i really love her as my aunt soa as my mum!!For now,My dancing and studies shall be my 1st pirority in my life!! As for my affinity, perhaps i really want to take some time to find someone who will share what i told him,understands and really be at my side when i'm really down and have a shoulder to cry on..i know i don't cry but there are times when i do feel emotional and in need of someone to confide to and understand what i mean to them in their heart.yeaps!hahah! Well,i shall forget about this imagination i had inside me.Because it is not possible to me at all.i don't believe that there is true love in life but i believe in kinship,friendship and God.At first, i thought that this guy from sp, knows me well when we know each other for 2years but in fact he don't.Everything has to be spell out to him and i shall put an end to it..as i know i'm sorry but i ahve to.Maybe is good to be good friends than procceed on to relationships.Now i shall pursue my dreams because i really want to go overseas to study in future and hopefully can bring my aunt along too!hahah! But that won't take long which i really hope so!hahah! Well okies...is quite late already..so good night my diary! More updates shall put on!!